I can’t believe how fast this week has flown by and if I’m being honest here (and that’s exactly why I’m here) I did not run at all this week.
It turns out that trying to follow a schedule, running or other wise, just doesn’t work for me right now. I had all the intentions in the world to go for a few runs in the evenings this week but little Teagan had other plans in the form of crazy long cluster feeds.
I was initially bummed out about it and felt like I was failing at being able to do it all. My motivation to run was there but I was having a hard time physically getting out the door.
Then my husband said something to me with respect to sleep that helped put it all into perspective.
You see, I haven’t had a real sleep schedule since Teagan was born either. I sleep when I can and if that means going to bed at 8:00 pm instead of the usual, and what I consider normal, time of 10:00 pm than that’s what has to happen right now.
Similarly I have to forget about following any sort of strict plan with respect to running and exercise. I simply must fit it in when I can.
And that’s ok because that’s what works for me right now.
I fully expect it to change as we all settle in to a routine and as Teagan gets older.
Yesterday that meant completing a 20 minute workout while the kids both napped. Maybe I should have slept too but in reality I was either going to work out or waste time on social media.
I think I chose the better option.
It’s tough to not compare myself to other new moms who seem to be able to fit in daily exercise. But then I remind myself that I also have a 3-year-old who demands my time and attention too making it that more difficult to fit it all in.
In a perfect world our whole family would follow the same schedule but that’s never going to happen.
Not now and not in the future.
So instead of beating myself up over it I’ve decided to just go with the flow.